What I’ve Been Working On Lately…

Week of 8/11/2019 – Life Update

Hi WordPress friends and followers, both old and new! It’s been a while, but it’s not on purpose, I promise. As some of you guys may already know, I recently started a part-time Social Media / Digital Marketing internship with a product / industrial design company called Hatch Duo. One of the main tasks I’ve been given is to get their company blog up & running!

It’s no surprise that WordPress was my main go-to in creation of their blog because I love the supportive community on here. But I just wanted to update you guys, and hopefully interest you in following their blog.

The posts I’m working on for them are different than what I’m used to, but that’s a great thing for me. I’m always looking to expand my horizons when it comes to writing–it keeps me on my toes and forces me out of my comfort zone. It has been awesome to learn more about the industrial design industry and get an inside look at how much work it takes to create a meaningful product. Yes, it is intense, but a good kind of intense. While I have been struggling keeping the balance between writing material for myself and work, I’m proud of the effort I’ve made so far in growing their business. With this blog, I aim to capture this startup’s important company values, all while showcasing the ups and downs of design processes.

The owners (and the entire team) express such humility and passion for what they do, and it has been very inspiring to be around. With this said, we would love to connect with all readers–the next great product idea might be in your head…you just might not know it yet. Subscribe to Hatch Duo’s blog here!

Love and prayers,

Erielle

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Week of 6/30/2019 – Life Update

Happy Monday & first day of July, WordPress friends! Today is my 26th birthday! Sorry I’ve been MIA the past week or so, but I have some exciting news to share with you all! I just got offered a part-time Social Media / Digital Marketing internship with a start-up product / industrial design company in the Bay Area. If you guys have followed along with my “Life Updates,” you know how tough it has been on the job / internship search for me. It really is the perfect way to kick-off my birthday month. I know to some, it’s just a part-time internship, but to me, it’s so much more. To know that a lil’ start-up sees potential in my writing and work ethic, leaves me incredibly blessed and humbled. Kick-starting a career or just getting your foot in the door can be the hardest step, but this opportunity may just be the very thing I’ve needed to acquire my dream job in the future. For year 26, my wish is to learn and grow more as a woman and writer, and to continue leading a life of love. There’s no limit when it comes to growth. Thank you to everyone who continues to believe in me. Here’s to changing the world through writing.

Love and prayers,

Erielle

What Is My Purpose?

Week of 4/28/2019 – Life Update

Lately, I’ve been having trouble trying to distinguish God’s purpose for my life. I know some of you might not share the same beliefs as me, but spiritually speaking, I feel so incredibly lost right now. As I mentioned in my previous “life update,” I decided to take a step back from coaching tennis to focus on writing and finding a job that I am truly passionate about. The past few weeks have been tough, to say the least. After receiving many emails from various companies passing on my resume, it has led me down a path of frustration and confusion.

Romans 5:3-4 says, “…but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know suffering produces perseverance, character; and character, hope.” The job search has definitely allowed me to practice patience, and while I do still hold on to hope, I wish I knew what path God is calling me to be on. If God has given me the gift of writing, how does He want me to put it into use? What if doors aren’t opening because I am meant for coaching? Where do I go from here? A compass to help me navigate through this life would be ideal right now…One thought that is keeping my head above water, is that God is carefully paving a way, and how much I will appreciate the moment when a company decides to take a chance on me.

Love and prayers,

Erielle

Slowing Down

Week of 4/7/2019 – Life Update

It’s been a couple months since my last life update, but there have been some changes recently that I’m excited for. One of the biggest changes is that I decided to take a step back from coaching tennis to focus solely on writing and finding a new job. It was a tough decision to make, mainly because I was making good money in doing so, but I came to the realization that I just wasn’t happy doing it anymore. It got increasingly difficult to put on a mask for students like everything was fine when it wasn’t, and I found myself becoming more anxious before work because my day felt so rushed. These past few weeks, I was almost robotic; like I was just going through the motions on the court, and the parents and students who pay money to get better, deserve more than that. I could no longer give 100% of my efforts to the job, so I figured that taking this risk would be a step in the right direction. Not to mention, it will be great to really hone in on my mental health and self-discovery. I’m about a week in to this new schedule, and so far, I’m loving it. I can bond with my dad on his days off, spend more time brainstorming / focusing on building my brand, and just slow down the pace of my day without having to worry about getting to the tennis courts on time. Granted, a schedule with tennis is all I’ve known for the past five years, so I’m expecting a huge shift in my social life and just finding different activities (other than writing) to keep me busy throughout the week.

I am also excited for a freelance writing gig I recently landed with KurrentMusic, a collaborative music blog. After doing my February Music Challenge, I realized how much I love writing about new artists and songs I’ve been listening to. Although there isn’t pay involved and the site isn’t “well known,” it’s a great way to connect with other music lovers. Depending on how many articles I publish through KurrentMusic, they are willing to offer access to special events / press passes and a professional platform to promote my work. Ultimately, my hope is that it will open the doors to even more freelance writing opportunities.

While I am looking forward to where these decisions will take me, it is a little scary thinking about what will / will not happen. As I’ve mentioned, tennis is all I’ve really focused on for the past five years, and writing has taken a back seat. Now that writing will become my primary focus, I am counting on it to work out. Here’s to hoping that it will, and knowing that God’s got me on the right path.

Love and prayers,

Erielle

What the Future Holds

Week of 1/13/2019 – Life Update

As much as I try to live in the present and enjoy the blessings currently placed in my life, thinking about the future terrifies me. I’ve never really been one to just do things in a whim; I’m a planner and an avid over-thinker. It’s a huge part of the reason why anxiety and depression easily consume me: I feel like I don’t have a solid ‘plan‘ for my life. A majority of my struggles stem from a lack of self-confidence. It’s true, I don’t believe in myself and it hurts to admit it.

Professionally speaking, I love writing and I want to make a living out of it, but I go through these periods of self-doubt to the point where I won’t even pick up a pen for months. It’s no secret that finding a job in any creative field is an uphill battle because the competition is fierce, but I’m afraid that I’ve become too comfortable with the job I have now to even pursue my dream of writing…that maybe it’s better to just leave this as a hobby. On the other hand, because the job I have now offers no benefits, I am pressured to find a career that does offer the things I need. But with me being out of school for three years now and nothing much to show for it, am I even qualified at this point?

In terms of the dating world, I think about relationships a lot. Being twenty-five, single, and seeing friends settling down makes me feel like there is some sort of timeline I’m not following. One of my biggest fears is ending up alone. I see couples around me constantly and it makes me think about how badly I want that for myself. I’ve dabbled in online dating or trying to meet a decent guy through apps, but for me, it’s always been easier to keep a conversation going through text messaging rather than in person (thanks, social anxiety). Of course I eventually want kids and my own family, but there is also this lingering thought that it just won’t happen for me.

I know some might think, “Well, if you’re not happy, why don’t you change the situation you’re in?” “Why don’t you put yourself out there and date?” For those who don’t quite understand mental health or living with anxiety / depression, all these tasks really are easier said than done. It may seem like I’m complaining, but I really don’t mean to come off that way. I am very aware of all the great things in my life, but anxiety and depression have a sick way of twisting your mind to constantly think of the things that are lacking. Like I said, I’m a planner. I settle for what’s comfortable; which is one of my worst habits. With work, I’ve learned to be comfortable coaching, so I settle for it even though I’m not particularly happy doing so. Additionally, I’m so used to being alone that I have trouble putting myself out there and trusting people. I had a future planned out in my head when I was still in college, but obviously, things don’t always go according to plan. To be honest, I am terrified of what the future holds; I am just praying for brighter days.

Love and prayers,

Erielle

Vulnerability

Week of 1/6/2019 – Life Update

Happy New Year, fellow bloggers! Hope you all had a wonderful holiday season and spent much needed time relaxing.

Just to get right in to it, I think I relaxed a little too much these past two weeks that I had off. I rarely picked up a pen and wrote, and now I’m sitting here with my journal struggling to write anything that doesn’t involve how I’m feeling in this moment. Last week, my anxiety and depression followed me around like a dark cloud…I was emotionally drained, for reasons I couldn’t even explain. While these feelings still linger today, I am feeling just a tiny bit better, but progress is progress.

It’s an all-too-familiar feeling…I have these periods where I think I can get by without including writing in my daily routine, and then when I try to get back in to it, I get back in to it uninspired. I don’t want to force anything, nor do I want to go a day without the one thing that keeps me sane. As someone who claims to be a writer, it is the most frustrating feeling. I care, but I don’t care at the same time…if that makes any sense. This is what anxiety and depression can do to me on a daily basis, and I feel guilty for feeling this way because in the back of my mind, I know there is nothing I should be depressed about. I was having a great time spending much needed time with family and friends during the break, and just like that, I’m back in to this dark hole that I try so hard to avoid. As much as I hate feeling this way, I know I need to keep pushing on and holding on to hope.

Love and prayers,

Erielle

Give Love This Holiday Season

Week of 12/16/2018 – Life Update

With Christmas exactly a week from today, I’ve been thinking a lot about the true meaning of the holiday season. For some, holidays like Thanksgiving, Christmas or New Years bring moments of love, joy, and laughter with family and friends. If this is the case, please remember to never take these moments for granted. As a kid, I thought that what made Christmas my favorite holiday, was receiving presents. Now that I’ve grown up, I’ve learned to appreciate the gifts that truly matter: making new memories with family and friends, indulging on delicious food, or even just watching the little ones open presents. I’ve learned that it is greater to give joy–to really give without expecting anything in return.

For others, I understand it can be more difficult to find joyous moments during the holidays–maybe they are mourning the loss of a loved one / spending their first holiday season without a certain family member by their side, or maybe just have a different family dynamic. I know how difficult the holiday season can be without loved ones; I still feel my grandparents’ absence when we celebrate with my mom’s side. Whatever the case may be, I pray that you find peace during this time. I pray you have the strength to find the light in darkness.

If you encounter someone who might not be in a “cheery” mood, please keep in mind of the difficulties they might be going through, before writing them off as a “party pooper” or a “Scrooge.” One of the great things about the holiday season is that it can shine a light on those who are ready and willing to give give back. Please don’t be afraid to reach out and let people know that you care.

Love and prayers,

Erielle

Do What You Love

Week of 12/2/2018 – Life Update

Happy Friday! The rain the past few weeks has been messing with my head. Some days, I found myself anxious because I wouldn’t be able to work (for those that don’t know, I’m currently a tennis coach), but some days, I felt happy because I’d be able to use all my free time to write. Today, I’m feeling a mixture of both, as well as a sprinkle of reminiscent…

In grade school, when asked what we wanted to be when we grow up, “writer” was never my answer. Growing up in a Filipino family, I felt like I was ‘trained’ to answer with “nurse” or something medical-field related. I love helping people, and for a while, I believed I was going to end up becoming a nurse. I’m not quite sure what went wrong down the line, but I felt in my heart that I wasn’t meant to be a nurse, so I ended up pursuing an English / Creative Writing degree. Sometimes, I feel like that decision still disappoints my parents…especially now that I’ve discovered the difficulties that come with choosing an artistic path. I have flashbacks of them constantly asking, “You sure you don’t want to be a nurse or a doctor?” But even with their doubts or my current hardships, I wouldn’t change a thing. Life is meant to be an unsure mess of events; both good and bad, but you need to love what you’re doing in order to believe that you’ve truly lived.

Love and prayers,

Erielle

Just Keep Writing

Week of 11/11/2018 – Life Update

I’ve done it again. 6 months have gone by without a single word written. Well, there were the occasional ideas jotted down in my journal, but nothing really came from them. Why do I allow this to happen? I know I need writing to be happy, but I allow minor setbacks or rejections take me away from the one thing I love. No one said following your dreams would be easy, but then again, I haven’t been doing much to really pursue them. It takes more than simply applying for dream jobs. It takes dedication. Passion. Patience. Getting called in for interviews is something I cannot control, but how often I write is something I can. I need to stop living in past rejections, criticisms, or self-doubts and keep writing.

Love and prayers,

Erielle

The Dating World

Week of 5/20/2018 – Life Update

I’ve never been good with first dates. Because I spend my time at home writing or on the tennis court coaching, a majority of my dating scene these days consists of finding suitors online. Although it’s not my ideal way to find someone, it’s just easier for me to spark up a conversation through writing direct messages than having a complete stranger come up to me or vice versa. It’s been a few months since I’ve gone on a date, but there was a point when I was going on dates at least once every week.

Like I said, I’m terrible with first dates. Partly because of my anxiety and the fact that I overthink every social situation, and partly because I still struggle with self confidence. There are too many awkward silences–I never know how much is “too much” to reveal about myself on a first date. In terms of self confidence, because I am meeting a majority of my dates online, I constantly find myself thinking about what they think of me. Wondering if I’m pretty enough, funny enough, or interesting enough…you can see why that can be a downfall in the dating world. Obviously, I still have issues within myself that I need to resolve, so that’s the main reason why I’ve been taking a break from dating. There can be pressure at times when I see peers from high school or college getting engaged or married…I feel like I should have that special someone in my life by now, but I also know not to rush in to love. Here’s to hoping that one day, I’ll find a guy who finds my awkwardness attractive.

Love and prayers,

Erielle